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Thursday, 1 June 2017

WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE











the outfit


It's amazing receiving things from stunning brands, but you know what's even better, is the lovely ones on the other end of the email. I was so excited to receive one from the darling Camelia from Minkie London, a brand I'd actually been browsing around days before, with dresses & tops inspired by the seventies and vintage pieces (yes, my vibe entirely)! she was just so delightful to speak with. So I was ecstatic to receive one of the utterly beautiful backless halter tops and of course shoot it. This off-white faux suede top, fits like an absolute dream, I kid you not, it falls across my top half so elegantly, whilst complimenting my body so tenderly. I tied it up at the front, but left it at the back, as I preferred to, paired it with my polka skirt creating my dream ideal of a retro outfit. It's a piece I know I'm going to get a lot of wear out of and can see myself pulling out of my wardrobe, still in many years to come.


on my mind


June's here and I'm feeling somewhat content, a good way to be of course, though it's sometimes baffling when I think well I have these I'm struggling with, or I have little of that, too much of this, however I'm just beaming & utterly grateful for all I have and can handle right now. I'm enthusiastic now the sun shines in Britain's favour, the heat is intense, just how I like it, giving me a push of excitement for summer. There's so many thing's I'm being proactive in planning and projects I want to go ahead with, I sometimes ask myself where in hell did all this confidence come from? 

I've never been loud, growing up I was shy and barely said more than a few words here and there; I always assumed this is how my character would be and stay for the future, yet through people and experience, I built up more of a backbone and also a lot more faith in myself, who I was and could be. As youngsters we view 'who we want to be', as quite literally being exactly as another, doing the same things, dressing the same way, adapting to certain characteristics, it's slightly mad - but we grow out of it, most of us at least. Then you're told to just be yourself, I mean rightly so, authenticity shines far more than a carbon copy, we know that, so we set out to 'find ourselves' through many different paths, but it's not that simple as bluntly searching for something or one who will make you think "Oh of course, this is me", who you are is not something you will candidly find, it's not a destination or the buy button on your shopping cart, it's a journey with no end, it's always in progress. You're a slab and a sculptor, carving parts of yourself as you make those mistakes, as you learn through not only education but experience, through heartbreak and travel. Through even seeing and hearing, touch and feeling, you're never going to be a finished piece of art, but an on-going marvel of a creation that keeps getting better and better. 

Why look for yourself? You're not out there as whole, you're as you are refining yourself here and there, as you wander the grounds of this planet. All we should aim for is quite literally the best we can be, and I don't mean what's on paper, such as grades and looks, but as a human.


with love, Kat



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  1. This is so beautifully written! "You're a slab and a sculptor, carving parts of yourself..." - you make me want to work on my own writing so much! I definitely agree that it's a journey. And the outfit is gorgeous as always! I haven't tried anything from MinkieLondon before but their stuff looks super cute! <3

    http://milenawears.com

    x

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    1. Thank you so much lovely! I never used to grow up thinking I'd love writing, but I read & write so much in my own time, I've just built that kind of style! It's a beautiful brand, very lovely people there as well.

      Much love honey.
      x

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  2. What beautiful words! Glad I've discovered your blog, p.s you look beautiful too! xx

    www.natalieleanne.com

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    1. Yay! Thank you love, checking out yours now!
      x

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  3. You write so beautifully Kat and you look so beautiful too! Beautiful beautiful beautiful!xxx

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    1. Oh you!!! Lots of love for you Hol! xxx

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