sharing one of my life inspiring quotes with you, 
from an all time favourite book.

A glance in the mirror, an endless view or a blank moment, all of which our minds for a brief point in time transcend into a whirlpool of nostalgia, triggered by anything, a song, a memory or hormones. 
I personally find myself on most days experiencing this at least once or twice, it can last for seconds or hours, however long you want it to, unless you can't shake it off. Looking out into the garden, seeing how its evolved over the years, the memories I have in this house, this town. Even though there's still bad, there is so many good memories and moments, I find myself missing them more than I should, old friends, routines, no worries for the future. We all find ourselves stuck in the past at times, sometimes we can't help but feel things were better then, we need to have hope and a little faith that what's coming is better than what's gone. 

“A friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. It’s called the Auguste-um. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains. When the barbarians came they trashed it a long with everything else. The great Augustus, Rome’s first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. It’s one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won’t let go of because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we’re afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured – the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn’t been so chaotic, it’s just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.”

Taken from Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert, one of my favourite passages that spoke past my denial and opened up a whole new perspective. If you're feeling lost, odd or conflicted, take some time to read her book, or watch the film adaptation, get yourself a cuppa, shut everything out and indulge in it. It'll change you, it will even a teeny bit. It'll bring you joy, wanderlust and help you breathe a little.

For you b.