what i'm wearing

boohoo red wide sleeved jumper, gap flared jeans & jack wills cross body bag

I'm the kind of person that gets absolutely petrified trying new things, whether that be meeting a new person for the first time, hence why the prospect of dating ignites steaming anxiety, or having to do something I'm not used to like travelling to the city alas getting the hang of navigation, therein I cling to my comfort zone like a cup of coffee in the dark cold mornings. I'm in a funk as of now, a good one, the kind where things are looking up but you're just a little overwhelmed with the change that is perhaps approaching. There are a few things here and there that I know if I don't start doing and become complacent with, things then won't really move forward, they'll just stay the same
& I don't do 'the same old' very well. 

It's times like this where I look back on my own personal growth very intensely, for good reason of course, it's rewarding to see how far you've come when all you thought is that things were as good as they were ever going to get at that point. Though it's not always good to dwell on the past, in worry it might hold you back, sometimes it helps the perspective of current issues by taking a look back at what you achieved in similar situations. It's easy to dismiss doing something over the anticipation that it's most likely not going to work out in your favour, so it is therefore deemed as some sort of failure, that's pointless even bothering with. However I think no matter the outcome, if you still tried, if you got out of bed & showed up, that's a success in itself. Nothing needs to go and end perfectly each time for it to be deemed a notable success in some way.

Success isn't always the trophies, the final product or obvious end goal; it's also the strength it took you to start, the perseverance throughout. It's the confidence you gained and battles you faced. The lessons learned and skills practiced. Don't forget to applaud yourself for trying & being brave, no matter the outcome.

"even if you go for it and it doesn't work, you still win. you still had the guts enough to head straight into something that frightened you. that type of bravery will take you places."

- the better man project 

with love, Kat